Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I was so scared
We thought yesterday might be the day to have to let this sweetness go. As I have mentioned, her cancer is back and much worse this time. Joe has been spending as much time as possible by her side and watching her every move.
Yesterday afternoon I stopped by to see Leah and Abby after work. He called me to say that Annie had walked outside, sat down and looked up at him. Her eyes were telling him she didn't feel good. On my way to the vet's office to meet them I called So to tell him what I feared. He cried with me and told me to be strong and there for Annie. When we saw the vet she had 103 temperature. Dr. Golden said she looked happy and suggested some topical ointment to ease some of the cancer in various places, gave us some antibiotics and sent us on our way. Needless to say we were greatly relieved.
After we ate dinner everyone spent extra time with her, loving and talking to her. She stayed in Joe's room most of the evening until she was ready for bed. She came in my room and assumed her position on the bed and patiently waited for me. I woke up several times during the night and was comforted by her being right beside me sleeping peacefully.
We know she doesn't have much time left, and that when the time comes we will know. We will do what is right for Annie, not us. It's part of the deal. Part of the love we have for her. I told her and Joe last night that if love could heal her she would be the healthiest dog in the world. He smiled and nodded his head.