Wednesday, July 9, 2008

X Marks the Spot

I started my radiation treatments yesterday at our local hospital. When I got there no one knew why I was there. Apparently the sweet young thing that gave me the appt. card and set it up forgot to enter it in the computer. But it was OK because they got it straightened out.

Joe was there with me which I appreciated. I was just a tad nervous but not much. I knew I was in good hands. By the way, I am with State Farm, not Allstate, just sayin'.

The past few days I had naturally been a bit anxious about my upcoming cancer treatments but I have not been dwelling on it. It is what it is. I have complete trust in God to get me through this. The fact that it is a treatable cancer helps ease my anxiety too. But when I walked into the Ladies Waiting Room it hit me full force just how lucky I am. There was a lady sitting in there, donned in a hospital gown with no hair. She was wearing a turban and she was much younger than me. I was only in there for about 2 minutes but it was long enough for me to realize that I am one lucky woman. I kept thinking of her last night and every time I was so thankful that was not me. I am so grateful that I have been living my life for the past year or so being thankful and grateful for what I have, not what I DON'T have. It has really changed me in good ways.

The treatment didn't last long at all. What took the longest was lining me up just right so the radiation hit the correct spot. Once they started the treatment is lasted about one minute. It was not painful at all. I know that down the line I will be a bit sore but I can deal with that. I will just keep remembering that woman in the waiting room.

Thank you Lord.

Oh, and just so you know why this has that title I am sporting a large X on the end of my nose. It will be there for several days if not until the end of the treatments.

15 comments:

dirtydishes said...

Now you know what to expect from here on out. I bet that is a releif. Love the pics of the wheat and the sweet babies, the twins too. LOL

MichelleSG said...

Congrats on surviving your first day with out having a total freak out attack. It may get more uncomfortable but you are right, in the world of cancer or medical issues it could be muuuch worse. When I had my stroke they sent me into a rehab hospital for 1 week. I was 34 and fully functional,everyone else there was well over 70 and about 2 inches from death. The therapists there would look at me an you could read the expressions on their faces. It fluctuated between "What is she doing in here." and "I'm glad I'm not her." I was one of the lucky ones, the worst that happened to me is that the rehab bill is by far the biggest medical bill I have. Like I said, it could be a lot worse and you have much to live for!

carrielt said...

I'm so glad to hear you are doing well.

My mother is the Relay 4 Life director of our county. Their big event is on the 25th of this month. If there is something like that in your area I would recommend going. You meet some wonderful people there!

BrownEyed Cowgirls said...

Very glad to hear that the first day went so smoothly. I know that has to add to the relief.

Loved the photos of the wheat. The spring wheat is just starting to turn golden around here. As much as I have enjoyed the cool weather-I know the farmers are praying for some dry heat to finish out their crops. If they don't get it soon-all of the beautiful wheat will be ruined.

Zane-nawwaa said...

All in God's time, honey. And you have that down good. XXXX OOOOO

BHM said...

I'm in the medical field, and I believe cases like yours are 60% treatment and 40% attitude.
You got 'em both covered.God Bless.

dAAve said...

GREAT!

Karen said...

I'm glad the day went well for you. I'll keep you in my prayers. You have a wonderful outlook!

buckpony said...

Trailboss, thank you for stopping by to visit! You are in my thoughts and prayers as you go through treatments. My Dad completed radiation treatments last October for his cancer. He did well, so I know you will, too. Take care of yourself.

Andrea said...

It's good to hear that you had a good trip. I would have been a ball of nerves when they didn't know why I showed up. I am glad it went so well.
My mother in law struggled with cancer for two years. I pray that your radiation goes well.

Pony Girl said...

You have such a positive outlook! That is so great! Hang in there!

Pam said...

Ya know, if they are just using the X as a marker...couldn't they be more creative?
Like a question mark?
A lady bug, a fly....drawn on I mean.
I'm glad you have so many good things surrounding you through all this.

Birdie said...

Please accept my belated prayers for your complete healing. You've got a great attitude. I know the feeling of hearing the word "malignant." The horror sinks in, but then the fight for survival takes over. You go, girl.

With your permission, I would like to steal your middle shot of wheat to use potentially as a faded background for a poster at my church. It is beautiful!

Trailboss said...

No problem birdie. Use whatever you would like.

And thank you for your kind words.

Syd said...

I hope that all goes well. Radiation saved my cousin but it also did a lot of damage to his brain. Sometimes the treatment nearly kills you too.