Today is a good day. Today at 2pm my son Ryan, will enter Lifeline Ministries. It can be the first day of the rest of his life.
Many many prayers have been answered today. Ryan has no idea just how many people have been praying for and will continue to pray for him and his recovery. He wanted to see me before he went in, he also wanted to see Annie before today but he didn't. If he had his truck licensed and insured he could have come out to see us but as it is I would have had to have taken Annie into town on a nasty day yesterday and I didn't think that was fair to Annie. Or me. I have been trying to take care of myself lately and have not allowed him to draw me into his illness and drug filled world. That might sound harsh but it is what it is. He has done this to himself and our family. He has to get the help that he needs in order to take care of himself. I have to do what I have to do to take care of myself and my family. Period. I know that he does not understand why I have done what I have done and continue to do. My hope is that someday he will understand.
So today is a hopeful day. A day in which dreams can start if even in the smallest of ways. I will continue to pray for Ryan every day. I look forward to the day I can look at him and hear a clear voice, a voice that is proud. A voice that is wiser. A voice that is sober.
One Day at a Time