Life will never be the same

It is with a heavy heart that I write this.  Most of you know who Joe is.  He is my X-Husband and I have written about him many many times on this blog.  We had so many good years together.  I truly wouldn't change a thing, except the way it ended.


Joe, after fighting a fierce battle with cancer succumbed to this awful disease last week.  On June 27th at 3:30am he told his nurse "I'm going now."  And with that he took his last breathe. I have been blessed to have been kept abreast of his fight through my sweet step-daughter Bethany.  Abby's mommy.  Abby and her sister Leah are grieving of course just like the rest of the grandkids.  Indeed life will never be the same.




About 6 months ago Joe found out that he had lung cancer.  He went through radiation treatments here in our local town which did indeed shrink the size of the tumor.  He decided to travel to Ohio where his oldest daughter lives, Amy, for his chemotherapy.  He had what I can only believe to be an excellent oncologist that did everything possible to rid him of this horrid disease.  Apparently Joe wasn't doing well with the Chemo treatments and decided for whatever reason to stop them.  Alas the cancer spread to just about every organ in his body.  He was in a great deal of pain.  The doctors did their best to control it but that kind of pain just can't be controlled.  


Joe was indeed my best friend for many years.  Unfortunately we had not kept in touch for the past few years.  It was not healthy for either one of us.  But he was never far from my thoughts.  He and his family were always in my prayers, especially lately.


I like so many others that he knew will miss him.  I will miss his humor, his giving heart.  The jokes that he played on others.  That was a big thing with him.....always the joker.  But on a serious note Joe was my best friend for many years.  I have missed him these past 8 years since we divorced but I guess just knowing that he was there....somewhere made me feel better.  Now that he is gone I feel lost.  I know his girls and grandkids are going to miss him forever, just like me. 


As Amy said, she now has the best guardian angel that a daughter can have.  This world has lost a caring and loving soul but Heaven sure did gain an angel. 


Until we see each other again Joe, I love you.  I never stopped loving you.  I know I'll see you again.  When I get there I hope that you, Mom, Dad, Linda, Annie & Sophie will be there to meet me. 


I don't plan on ever writing on this blog again after this post.  I have enjoyed it over the years but everything has a time to stop.  This is the time.  Take care of yourselves my friends and smile even if you don't feel like smiling.  It makes the world a better place.