Joe told me last night that he thinks Ryan will call me today. I don't think so. Even if he does I don't think I will answer the phone. I need to put distance between myself and him. Is that wrong? I don't think so. He has been given so many chances by so many people and the illness keeps winning. I hate the illness. I hate the addiction that he has. I hate the addiction that so many people have. But it is what it is and I have to take care of myself first. I have given my all to him and he has gobbled it up every time.
Joe got an old bicycle out of the garage last night for me. He aired up the tires cause I am going to start riding it. I was going to ride last night but the storms came through instead. I will start off easy and work my way up and eventually be able to ride as long as I like. I am excited about this. I have not been on a regular exercise program in years. It will help me physically and emotionally. Nothing like a good ole sweat to get the blood a'pumping.
As I walked out of my door this morning and turned to lock it I was so grateful. Grateful for where I live. That I own a house with a little land for my pups to run and my horses to graze. A pond to fish in or just look at. Beautiful scenery no matter where I look. It was a good feeling. I am a lucky girl.
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You are indeed a lucky gal!
Attitude of gratitude, that's what I'm talkin' bout!
The bike idea is excellent!
Life is good when we let God handle the complicated stuff.
Exercise helps in so many ways. It keeps me in the moment. There is so much to be grateful for including those little twirling babies that are over to the right of your page. Soon you will have new family members. That's really nice.
You have lots to be thankful for!!! I just started riding my childhood bike after 38 years, and I love it. Yes, excercising helps me with stress. I have been in a slump for the last few weeks and am going to get back in the grrove today! Just needed a break. Have a good day!
have fun on the bike , watch out for spagetti legs
I think the bike is a great idea. It gives you exercise...and freedom to ride uninterrupted with your thoughts and have a little "me" time. Hang in there.
Good idea on the bike, particularly to help you deal with the stresses in your life.
Dan
I think the bike riding will help you, I like to take my dogs for a walk through the neighborhood to relax, although it isn't always relaxing when little wiener dogs run out at us!
Riding a bike is great exercise..you will enjoy this up through October...and nice little ride each day.
I'm so sorry to hear about Ryan....saying a prayer today for healing of hearts and addiction.
sometimes the hardest part of doing the right thing is how wrong it feels. there, i said it :)
i have a bike and i love it.
If we all have those flashes of gratiitude for what we DO have in life, we'd all be better off. Use yours to sustain you through the tough times. It works.
xox
Linda and Chef
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