It's a good day but it is a bad day too

I am so happy that my precious Stephanie is graduating tonight. She is such a sweet and goodhearted person. She has always taken up for the downtrodden. The kid on the playground that was different. The one being picked on. She has had some hard times in her 18yrs on this Earth, but she has persevered through them and is a wonderful and caring young woman. She has worked hard this year and last to make the best grades that she can. She is graduating. My baby is growing up too fast.

My brother in law is having surgery today. A very serious and dangerous surgery. One that has only a 30/70 chance of survival. He has recently been hospitalized for renal kidney failure. On top of that he is diabetic and his right leg has no blood flow from the knee down. The surgery will be to put stints in the kidney and in his leg. Joe will be there for his brother of course. He will miss Steph's graduation but she is fine with it. They had a long talk yesterday about this and Steph understands and wants him to be with his brother.

Project Graduation is tonight. Joe and I are supposed to be there. We have our assignments and times. Steph will be there. But things change. Joe won't be able to be there for obvious reasons. I feel that I need to be with Joe. But I want to be there for Stephanie. I am very torn on what to do.

Joe called me a few minutes ago. He told me to be strong for Stephanie tonight. I will attend the graduation along with my son Ryan. I'll bring Ryan back to our house (he's staying the night again!). From there I am undecided. I want to be at Project Graduation but I want to be with Joe. The timing of the surgery couldn't be worse, but it is what it is.

I am going to just take everything a minute at a time. I am going to try very hard to go to Project Graduation. It depends on how well Bill is doing.

Whew, it's going to be a loooooong day. But it will be a good day for my daughter. She deserves it.